How fickle is this
mind and heart
So easily it forgets
that which once
consumed me
How easily I forget.
Love doesn’t have to make sense and it usually doesn’t.
Being in love is a black hole that sucks your time, and mind. And no matter how
sensible and levelheaded you can otherwise be, love can turn you into a crazy. I
have had the great pleasure and misfortune of having been in love many times. You
would think that after the first heartbreak I would learn but nope, here I am
giving it a go again despite my most recent knowledge of the pain it can cause.
Am I a sadist or just an addict, or did I just slowly forget.
In the year that it has now been since my epic break up, I
have gone on dates with 9 men. I refrain from talking about these men because
the way I feel about them so quickly changes from like to hate. I begin writing
an article about this awesome new man in my life but in the week or two that it
takes me to finish writing my piece, my views about the man have changed and
the article is shelved.
For Eg.
My most recent conquest, lets call him Mr. Charmer. And as
you can imagine Mr. Charmer is exactly that, completely charming. He smelled nice, (the most important and commonly
ignored feature by most men). He let the
compliments drop often and with sincerity. He opened doors and dropped me home.
He was a man that deserved the kiss he got at the end of the night.
It was a perfect evening, I left blushing, and happy. But the cynic in me was wondering where the
dark cloud was to this silver lining of a man. It couldn’t have been this
wonderful, where was that catch. And voila if you go looking hard enough you
shall find it. So this one unlike 3 other men I dated was actually single
(hurrah for me) But this one like one other boy I dated still loved his ex.
I feel like I have some ex-girlfriend curse. If I like a man
- he has an ex-girlfriend that he still loves OR a girlfriend who things are
complicated with. I wonder if it has something to do with the fact that I have
an ex-boyfriend that still loves me. Is this some weird kind of karma?
So I’ve decided, next boy who comes a knocking im going to
sing to him.
except I’d change some lines around
If you wanna be my lover,
You gotta be single...(be single)
No loving your ex-girl friend
That aint going to cut it.
Who knew the spice girls could still be relevant. You live
and learn everyday. Amazing!!
